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[Sep. 4th, 2008|08:57 pm] |
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i have a headache. and ive been doing homework for 3 hours. i need a cigarette. and there are drunk college sluts screaming in my hall.
im gonna go crazy. |
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[Apr. 14th, 2008|09:18 am] |
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i just feel like shit. i feel like my life is going to shit and everything around me is going to shit. i got my purple beanie confiscated by the fucken narcs today. and y'know, i didnt really think anything of it at first, but then i started to think who the fuck are they to tell me what i can and cant wear? im a fucken adult, i can watch porn, i can buy cigarettes, but i cant wear a fucken beanie to school because i might look a little suspcious? so i cant get it back for like 2 weeks. and whatever, i'll remember to get it. ive got 2 tests on wednesday, one of which im guranteed to fail, and the other i might come close. i dont know how to do any of the shit we're doing right now in my pre-calc class. and the only fucken reason i took that class is so when i get to UNM i wont be completley lost on the math. but i fucken am. i dont understand the shit, and the shit i did i forgot cuz its been like 3 weeks since ive done it. we had a review today-i couldnt do 1 fucken problem. ive got a 76% in there, and i know for a fact im gonna bomb my test, and im hoping like fuck it doesnt drop me down to an F. becasue im not sure if i need that credit to graduate, and id rather be safe then sorry. theres no fucken way in hell i am going back to high school becasue i failed a class. i swear to god if i dont have enough credits to graduate im gonna fucken go postal. then ive got a chemistry test on wednesday. im not too worried about it cuz ive got some notes we're allowed to bring. but if i fail it ive only got one more shot at a passing grade, and thats on the final. i just wanna fucken get out of school and get a job. because im fucken broke as fuck, no kiddin, i have absolutley no money saved up. and ive been working my ass off applying for jobs. and ive called and called and i hate it when the managers bullshit me becasue i know they are. if you dont want someone to apply for your company dont put out a fucken help wanted sign you fuckers. and if the drug test im fucked. because ive been smoking almost everyday for the past 3 weeks. i barely have enough money for my cigarettes. im fucken hungry and there isnt shit to eat in my house. then im gonna get really fucken hungry and go out and eat and then regret it becasue i spent my money when i know i could of lasted one more day. but i cant do this anymore. i cant put up with these people. i cant even motivate myself to do my homework. i dont even want to go to school anymore. at this point, id rather drop out than spend one more fucken minute in that place. but im gonna force myself to just get it over with. ive got 14 days to go. |
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[Mar. 20th, 2008|09:53 pm] |
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so im finally on spring fucken break. cept, i have a project to do in my Myth class, but its okay, i have like 20 days before its due.
so i leave for my trip on the 30th, fucken finally.
my tongue is fine.
i have $300 saved up for my trip, and i probably wont spend half of it while im there. so when i get back, im getting another tattoo. its gonna be a dia de los muertos skeletones, either skeleton or skeletones. but i dont know exactly what i want, and tomorrow im going downtown. and theres this store that has cool fucken dia de los muertos statues, so ima bring a camera and take pictures so i can have my tattoo artist draw me something awesome. but i dont want them in traditional clothing, ima switch it around a bit. but im gonna have like $200+ to spend on it, so its gonna be a good sized tattoo. |
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[Mar. 14th, 2008|11:16 am] |
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moms supposed to take me to Itz at 1.
for my birthday lol...going to a place where sick little fucks go to scream and whine at their parents that they want to play more games.
oh well. i still like the food.
then gotta go to payless to find 'nice shoes' for my DC suit. not heels. i dunno. just something that is semi-comfortable, wont break my ankels, and looks good.
excited, ive got next monday, tuesday, wednesday, and thursday and then im off school for 2 weeks. spring break, then my trip. and im excused for it.
my tongue feels a lot better. i finally got some alcohol free mouthwash, and my tongue doesnt hurt and the swelling has gone down a lot. i can finally eat lol.
gonna go take a shower. |
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[Mar. 10th, 2008|06:46 pm] |
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got my tongue pierced yesterday.
did it hurt?
fuck yeah!
i could feel the needle pushing through my tongue. and its swollen as fuck, and it hurts a little. its hard to eat too; dont wanna bite the barbell. :(
no more piercings. time to work on tattoos.
so wtf. i was watching Gangland like two days ago about the East and West Coast Bloods. and i fucken hate gangs, i honestly do. one big reason is that once at a show me and my sister had long necks pelted at us; fucken mexican gangs in albuquerque. we didnt even do anything, seriously. we just walked up to see what was happening and next thing we know theres a long neck flying at our faces. assholes. maybe one of the reasons i dont believe in gangs is because i dont live in the ghetto. i dont walk around my neighborhood, scared im going to be shot (although last year i came pretty close to being shot). and plus you have to get your ass beat to be in a gang. or fuck all the gang members. and its like why would i do that? i dont want my ass kicked and i dont want syphillis. and then you have to go around shooting people and slashing at their faces with razors. i may not like a lot of people, but i would not slash anyone with a razor. if someone wants to fight me, fine. but dont even try to bring any weapons into the mix. like brass knuckles. eh, dont even get me started on how much i hate people who bring brass knuckels into a one on one fight. i can kick your ass without the use of weapons thank you very much. i mean, if theres 3 people trying to jump you then you have reason to bring a bat or knuckles or a knife. but not if you're up aganist one person. and i also hate people who threaten you with brass knuckles. its very lame, and some people might buy it but i dont for a second. if im about to fight someone, and they whip out a pair of BK i would be pissed. its so unecessary.
and crews are the same. they suck, and the only people who start them arre little girls and boys trying to act all tough. and they endorse the use of brass knuckles too. and i dont know why; they're all too pussy to use them anyways. but, whatever. if you go around acting like the shit and threatening people that are older than you and talking lots of shit its bound to catch up to you one day. and it probably wont be pretty. |
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[Mar. 2nd, 2008|10:28 pm] |
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this weekend was pretty fun.
first, friday night, my cousin threw a birthday party. Me and the BF we're there first at like 6pm, and i sewar to god 150+ people showed up. not only that, but i was high 7pm past 2am. it was fun. he was introducing me to a million people, and i barely remember any of their names. all i remember is some guy kissing my hand. my BF convinced me that it would be much more comfortable and warmer if we slept in the car. it wasnt lol. we were freezing our asses off for 3 hours, waiting for everyone to leave so we could crash in the house. finally at 5am we went in. i dont like drinking, but i drank a few cups of beer. there were two kegs. but it didnt do shit because i was already high as a kite lol.
saturday morning and afternoon. we went to breakfast. went to coronado for like an hour. went in guitar center where we met the temp drummer of the Rumfits. he was pretty nice. then went to dorrar movies and saw "I Am Legend". kind sad and kinda creepy. creeped out the BF lol.
saturday night went to Calabrese concert. nekorbillys arent that great. but Hallowed Ground, band from El Paso is sick. they're really fun live lol.
got 2 free rumfits patches and a free single CD thing. pretty cool. |
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[Feb. 15th, 2008|03:32 pm] |
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seriously, i dont know if i'll ever talk to my mom again.
shes a fucken MORON..
so, her, her BF, my older sister, and my older sister's BF share a 2 BR apartment. and my older sister has been paying the rent since they got it, and starting in december, my mom was supposed to pay the rent every month.
but funny thing, yesterday, as my sister was getting up to go to her classes there was a knock at the door. they opened it, and it was their landlord, and the fucken cops. turns out my mom hadnt paid the rent since december, and also turns out that they owe $2000.
well, the apartment is under my sisters name since my mom has terrible credit. and the cops wouldnt let them take anything, so all my sister was able to get was her backpack and the clothes she was wearing. so they landlord changed the locks so they couldnt go back in.
so at 1:00 today, they borrowed my g-pas truck, and went over. then the landlord says that my mom showed up last night, took some food, some clothes, and my sister's DVD player and left. didnt take anything else and didnt even bother calling us.
not only that, but they completley filled up the truck, so they had to call my cousin and his friends to bring their truck so they could get the rest of the shit out. ANd they also found out that my mom went to court about a week ago, for my older sister, and they told her she had 7 days to pay the rent. BTW, the landlord did give my mom an eviction notice, but didnt fucken bother to tell my sister.
basically, my sister was completley clueless that this was going to happen, so now her and her BF are going to be living with us for a while.
yea, and if you didnt know, my grandpa (my mom's dad) passed away May of '07. and when he died, my mom took his old ass photo albums of him and her and her mom and of all her brothers and sisters. and you know what? she fucken left them there.
and seriously, i am so mad at my mother i dont even know what to say. if she calls, im not going to have anything to say to her, all i know is that im going to be very very angry. and i dont even want to speak to her, as far as im concerned, i have no mother. |
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[Feb. 13th, 2008|10:23 pm] |
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took the Senior panaramic picture today.
and I stuck my tongue out :p haha.
anyways.....
tomorrow is V-day. and then friday the BF is takin me out to dinner, and maybe a movie. and then maybe bowling. but saturday we're going bowling with his family. we went last weekend too, and I think i bowled a 60. hahahaha. shutup!
then i dyed my hair fucken fire engine bright ass RED
going to wal-mart with siobhaen---gonna get some fud.
then sunday is her 20th birthday. and saturday all her friends and our cousins are comin over for a party.
then 3 weeks till my 18th. hellz yea.
btw, my dad is crasy. he was burning weeds in our backyard, and for some strange reason put embers in the big trash can with dry ass dead weeds.
then, im walking past the window, and what do i see?? flames as tall as i am (im 5'3)
so lol, me and the BF tried to put it out by fillin up pots cuz the hose was in the front yard and we didnt have enough time to get it. so, basically, our trash can got burned down. i'll post pictures if i can find the digital camera.
but LOL. |
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[Feb. 11th, 2008|08:13 pm] |
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fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck.
i got a 73% on that chem test. oh well, better than an F i guess.
dont know what to get the BF for V-day. got him a card already, and this cuet little stuffed animal. but thats all i got. i have $20 in my checking account. so, no money...i really dont feel like stealing something.
fuck. i really really dont want to do chem homework right now. BF has tomorrow and Wednesday off and Friday, so we get to spend all day together tomorrow. so i want to finish my HW, but i cant concentrate. and i took like a 3 hour nap today...no sleep for me tonight. i might just stay up till 12 and go get him when he gets off.
i want some iced fucken coffee from Sonic very badly.
but, i guess Friday night he is taking me out to Dinner. dont know where though.
Go0o0o0o0o0o0o00o0o0o0o0o0o0d.
i am so bored right now.
thirsty.
burnt.
worried.
headace.
restless.
BBBBBOOOOORRREEEEDDDDD. |
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[Feb. 10th, 2008|09:17 pm] |
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the chillest day ive had in ages.
woke up, went to check out this kick-ass hat at this store. but didnt get it.
dropped off BF at work. went inside his work and bought him a V-day gift (its fucken adorable). then went to the clearence section and found the the coolest shit.
then went for a long ass fucken walk. saw a bunch of retards that i never knew lived around me. then gave them all dirty looks and tried to ignore them.
came home, chilled some more. took a badass shower and drank some bomb ass tea.
and now im just laughing at people.
working on getting my group up and running. just a lot of shit to pull together (i have a lot of information on people im going to post). |
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[Feb. 10th, 2008|11:58 am] |
so shit.
i believe our argument was setteled, and our differnces put aside. mutual understanding...i hope it stays that way.
well,
afterwards we smoke half a joint, it was a pretty fat joint too.
damn.
i was done.
but I love him. I do. But sometimes we have to sort out our lives. |
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[Feb. 9th, 2008|11:35 pm] |
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what the fuck is wrong with the world?
seriously.
so last night me and the BF we're supposed to smoke some bud. it was 1am by the time we got the chance, so i told him we'd do it tonight cuz if i smoked at 1am id get tired and just go to sleep. and thatr would be a waste of weed. logical, right? NO.
so we're supposed to do it tonight. but at 8 we went bowling with his family till 10. then, as we're right about to leave the bowling alley, he informs me that he has invited my cousin and 2 of his friends to come along. im like WTF. its just supposed to be you and me tonight. and he goes "well, we were gonna match them bowl for bowl." the problem with that is we smoked them out like a weekend or two ago, so they fucken owe us anyways. but i didnt wanna go smoke in public, i get too paranoid. and then fucken sure as shit they would want to go drive aorund like idiots. and you know what? i dont wanna risk getting busted by the APD. and all of us gettin MIPs and getting in a fuck load of trouble. but noo0o0o0o, im a fucken retard for thinking such a thing could possibly EVAR happen.
so shit. im mad about that. and when i tried to explain myself it didnt help. it got worse. plus we got into another argument over something that he doesnt know JACK SHIT about. so i just kept quiet. i just got up and walked upstairs and took a fucken shower. now hes all pissed off in his room, probably smokin my fucken J.
and another thing.
apparantly, i dont like anyone. and i am also a total bitch.
and i have my reasons. and i dont give a fuck what anyone says about my reasons.
when people act like dicks to me and treat me like shit and take advantage of me i hold grudges. when people talk shit to me or i hear them talking shit about me i get pissed off. it doesnt matter if it happened 2 years ago or 2 days ago i dont let that shit go. and the people that always pull that type of shit on me do apologize, but then do it again. so, eventually i just learned to not just talk to them or hang with them little, if at all. i just dont want to be associated with those type of people. the only way my shit ever gets squashed is if i beat their ass. and even after that i still dont like them.
i dont want to get along with everybody. i dont like everybody. why would i want to chill and smoke a bowl with someone who i think is a complete fucken retard?
I FUCKEN DONT!!
and i know a lot of people think im a bitch. but, once again, IDGAF.
my true friends fucken know me.
and another thing.
i will not strain myself to hang with people who avoid me or never call me. i wont waste my time with people who only pretend to like me. who are only my friend when we're at school or something like that. ive known people like that before, and if they cant realize how fun and how sweet i am then they can take my fucken size 9 and stick it up their fucken asses.
Fuck Everybody. |
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[Feb. 8th, 2008|02:10 pm] |
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BRODY!!
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[Feb. 7th, 2008|09:21 pm] |
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today was pretty gay. school was alright, i just go to class and eat lunch and thats about it. then i come home, and i had no homework, so i decided to clean. i picked up the living room, vacumed it, did the dishes, cleaned the kitchen. washed a bunch of shit, washed my sheets. completley cleaned out the catbox, and then swept my bathroom. i also took a 30 minute walk becasue i had a headache from all the chemicals and shit.
so then, my dad comes home. and asks me if i wanted sonic. i told him no cuz sonic burgers make me puke, and i already wasnt feeling good. he flipped out and started yelling and ended up just going in his room and beind all pissed off. so i was pissed off cuz he didnt even thank me for all the cleaning i did. then he comes down stairs again and starts bitching and monaing and yelling at me some more. so i was really really mad. so then he tried it again and i couldnt take it. i seriously blew up and screamed at him for like 3 minutes. i was so mad. its just all the stress buliding up and shit and a bunch of other shit. so pretty much he apologized to me like 3 times, and now is being nice to me. he told me that he doesnt appreciate me enough. i guess im ok, im still kinda pissed off at him.
anyways....
finally, some fucken shows coming up.
First, the Rum Fits mother fucker. havent seen them in forever. i might have seen Ends !n Tradegy before, but i do not recall. I dont know who the headlining band is, probably some dumbass scene band or something.
FUCK YEA! H.R. fools. im not 21, but im still gonna go chill outside the show. perhaps i can catch a glimpse of the black man with the huge dread. ;)
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| im finally back |
[Feb. 6th, 2008|08:12 pm] |
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its been a while LJ.
and im deciding to start writing again just becasue things are getting so fucken hectic around here. im finally in the 2nd semester of my senior year. and im fucken glad about it. cant wait to move out and get my own place with the BF.
new shit-------
im currently taking classes at CNM. chemistry. yea yea shutup, its my favorite subject and i probably know a fuck load more than any of you people. im getting HS and college credit for those classes. i had my first chem exam today, and i think i did pretty well. i got a pre-calc test back today, and i got a fucken 98% on it. hellz yea. i dont think ive ever gotten a 98% on ANY math test ive ever taken haha. uhm, march 30th i will be leaving for a trip. long story, but i won a scholarship and i get a free ALL EXPENSES PAID trip to washington DC. all i hafta bring is spending money. and i get a college credit just for going. and i get to scare all the wittle kids from Santa Rosa that im going with, not to mention all the politicians on capitol hill. Super Tuesday, i voted Barack. yea, im a registered democrat AND im old enough to vote. so :p. uhm, the BF and i are doing pretty well, and hes FINALLY working full time. $300 a week. hahaha! filed my FAFSA, but im not gonna get shit becasue im filed under my dads taxes, and he makes like $51,000 more than my mom does haha. so im not gonna get that much money. but at least i got the bridge scholarship.
dyeing the hair pink again real soon. like, next month. getting my tounge pierced, finally. oh and i finally got a tattoo. ill post a picture of it oneof these days when the digital camera obtains some batteries.
gonna go work on the senior portfolio. |
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